Oh November!

I cannot even believe it is November. How did that happen? Steve just came home in July. WOW
So this is a big month for me. Very exciting in deed. I am filming my commercial on the 7th so 6 days from now! I am obviously stoked about it I mean wow really. I just wish I was rich to go out and buy all new clothes for it since they aren't providing it but what can ya do.
In 17 days New Moon premiers and I cannot wait to see it.
Then Thanksgiving and that is just an awesome time.
Then November will be over. How does it go by so fast?
I wish I was smaller for my commercial but I really don't think I will get smaller unless steve leaves for an extended amount of time lol. However I am already pretty small and much smaller would look a little unhealthy for me anyway.
My neice Taylor has email now and I am very happy about that cause now we can keep in touch and I love her so much that it is really important to me that we can do that.

satellite Heart

So many things are going so right. I started tearing up today on my Monday morning bike ride. My life is beautiful I sometimes wonder how it has happened. I am so happy and feel like everything is right where it should be. I will be filming my commercial November 8th. I am so excited about that. I cannot believe I have lived in Cali a year and will now be filming a commercial. I mean really how does it get better. I am so super excited about New Moon coming out. I already have my tickets and my friend Drew is going with me and we are just gonna have such a great time. I am going as Sookie Stackhouse for Halloween this Saturday to a party...I am just to happy lol. I bested my best this morning to. 10 miles in 46 mins OH YEA baby!! Life is just A W E S O M E!!!!

New MOON

New Moon Movie

I have my tickets in hand for New Moon and the special showing of Twilight! I am so excited I cannot wait!

I love the morning breeze whipping past as we cut through the warm air! On our way to a place where you never know what you might see. Every day holds a new possibility to blow your mind one more time. Today the marine layer is thick it cast dull Grey on a normally blue and white capped sea. AS we ride past you can barely see the waves you know to be there speckled with surfers looking to catch a break. Today a business man out for his morning run with his freshly bought Starbucks stops at a struggling young homeless kid trying to juggle. He has dropped ball after ball. I cannot hear but see the man still holding his fresh bought mocha latte take the 2 bright yellow balls in one hand an through them in the air to juggle teaching the kid all while still holding his cup. Today I see the multimillion dollar beach front vacation rentals with people out sipping their morning cup or grandmothers out watching the children playing with the foam noodles...I know they wishing if only their vacation could last just a few more days. I am wishing as well to live here forever. I pass the shopkeepers opening up shop out sweeping a patio layered with the sand that surrounds them. I pass the oh so fine life guards prepping their gear for the sure to be busy day. I arrive at the end of the board walk to come upon the always reliable volleyball girls today sporting their rash guards and itty bitty bikini bottoms. I turn around to a sun trying it's best to beat back the fog. It is working as I ride the sun becomes stronger and brighter and I am wishing I had not worn jeans for this wonderful ride. Passing the Pacific Beach pier you still can barely see the cottages on the end. Your starting to be able to see the surfers more clearly and the beach goers scattered along the shore. It such a magical place it is only 9:20am and it is already littered with people just trying to catch some of the wonderfulness that is Pacific Beach! Arriving again at the other end of the boardwalk. You can actually see the bright strong sun winning the war against the fog. In amazement we just have to stop and capture this moment to share with everyone who might care about this awesome mother earth's natural beauty!

On our way home the people are more fun to watch then anything else. We ride the sidewalks never sure of what insane beautiful crazy unreal absolutely amazing thing you might see. We a Tandum bike built for two with the cutest old people who no doubt are still madly in love peddling as fast as they can. We come across twoo beautiful women standing outside a small cafe with the smell of coffee all around locked in a loving embrace. Crying brushing the hair back from one anothers face kissing one last time before they break for who knows maybe the last time. Homeless men who say hello and nod their heads.
It is such an amazing world to discover. It is my front yard. It is my home. It is where I belong!

I'd be California...If California was a girl!

This morning when I signed on to AOL it was all decorated with fall leaves...I said to myself hmm I bet Tennessee's trees are turning, wish I could see it. It was a passing thought, a minor tug at my heart strings. I didn't really think about it again until I was cruising down the Pacific Beach Boardwalk that thought came back to me and I was just blown away by how I would not trade California for anything. I love living here so very much. It has changed me so much. I have been chosen to do a commercial for Stroller Strides in November. I mean it just cannot get any better and when I think hmm maybe I might miss somethign else all I gotta do is think about it. Florida with it's humidity and Tennessee haha from what I have heard it has been raining like crazy things are flooded everywhere. Thank god for the Navy and moving us here. Thank god for California!
We might always be broke, we might have a lot to complain about but all we gotta do to snap ourselves out of it is walk out side!

Just Us!

Steve came home July 2 and life has been perfect. Their really wasn't any big adjustment it was pretty much like he never had left. It was amazing of coarse I had, had time with him in Hawaii but even Dillon and Breanna acted as though he had just always been here. I think just proving how close knit our little family is. We have been staying very busy doing things like seaworld and dinner with shamu. Soak city and the beach and just being together. It really has been so wonderful and I am not exaggerating.
I had gotten a new couch before Steve came home and I had tried to keep it a secret but I have a big mouth and told him and sent him pictures and my husband being his ever reliable self got upset and said he didn't want a new couch and he wished I had talked with him and blah blah. The truth is he just doesn't like change which is kinda odd given our navy life but things he can help he doesn't like to change. Well, anyway back to it...he now loves our couch. It has in a way brought our love and sweetness out even more. We pile pillows up in the corner and each lay on a side of it and our heads will be close and it is just our new cuddle position. It is comfortable and sweet and I absolutely treasure it.
I am truly the luckiest girl. My husband is the sweetest man, the greatest father and my best friend and I am so blessed to have him back home where he belongs. Everyday we have together is so precious to me and I am not taking one of them for granted. With duty days being every 4 days now it certainly helps not taking them for granted. Like tonight I am sitting here by myself watching some chick movie wishing he was here cuddling with me on the couch. I just love him so very much.
On another note we will be flying home in a week. Yes the east coast is still home. Despite how much we love California and how much we seem to fit in...the east coast has Krystals and Sonnys and our favorite Japanese steakhouses and Zaxbys and most importantly our family. We are very excited about coming home. I am a bit nervous flying with Breanna but will be giving her some sleepy goodness. It will be a bit odd being back there but I am really excited. I love the beach but I am craving the Hawaissi like I have for the past 3 years. It just doesn't seem like summer without a trip to Richie's and being on that river. Seems odd but I miss that so much.
I am also really hopeful to see some of Steve's family that live in North Carolina and letting the kids play together. I really want our little girls to get together and share bunnies LOL.
Ok well that is enough from me right now. Til next time.

I have the best husband...I am so lucky

So Steve calls me out of the blue on Saturday and I happened to be out shopping. Which I did not need to be so I was like I am checking out I will rush home call me back. He is hesitant telling me it is ok i don't have to. I said no I will. SO we get home and he calls and I am kinda like ok why is he calling. It was the day before mothers day we had just talked a few days before. So much has been up in the air with the ships schedule that when he stopped talking. I was like ok is something going on and he was like no why should there be and I was like no it is just a feeling I have I mean why did you call. He was all what do you mean what do YOU think is going on. I said well you just told me the other day about a possible change in the schedule so is it that. He is like no and I was all ok what? He said I think you need to look into how much it would cost to meet me where Brian lives. A code word we have. I was like what are you serious. A because we had already discussed it and he said it would not be worth the money to get me over there when he would be home so shortly after. So I was shocked. B because we don't have any money. I looked and found a very cheap flight we are staying with friends and I got the kids taken care of thanks to my good friends here. It all fell into place in one evening it was amazing. Now I get to see my husband in 16 days and I cannot wait. I am obviously excited about going to where the ship pulls in but it could be Antarctica and I would still be over joyed cause I get to see Steve. I cannot wait. This is a dream come true. Now we will have 6 days of uninterrupted us time. Time I cannot wait for and will treasure for the rest of my life. I am so happy and lucky to have him.

Look @ my HOT man!

Hopefully back to normal...

We have been so sick here this month. I hope when April ends the sickness will to. Dillon got sick right in the beginning of April and has been fighting it every since. Breanna and I followed. It has take 3 antibiotics and hopefully he will get better now. Turns out mine is just allergy's. It is so pretty in So Cal right now. Flowers are everywhere. However it with it and the dry air I have been so congested and just nasty. Spitting the sickest crap out. I hope it is better and I can get on with my life. I have not worked out since last Monday and it's freaking Sunday night. I feel like a cow even though I am technically down a pound.
On another note We had our halfway party and It was great. I met alot of great people off the ship and I just enjoy being around people who know the kinds of things I am going through and those women do more then anyone. We had such a good time. I wore my fancy earrings my wonderful husband sent me from Kagoshima Japan so of corse I had to dress up to match them and I felt like I looked really good. I just can't get over my new self and I am not sure what it will take for me to believe that it is actually me in those pics. I think I had just gotten so use to the idea of being heavy for so long that now it is hard for me to believe it. Even Steve was amazed at the pics and said it didn't look like me...in a good way lol.
Today we went to the beach with some friends and had such a good time. I bought a new bathing suit bottom and it was a freaking medium lol. Though I still think my hips are better left covered lol. So it is a skirt thing but still. I am hesitant to post it on here but if freaking everyone on the beach can see it why can't my followers? So here ya go.

I cannot even tell you how good this makes me feel.!

Hi Lisa:)
I don't know if you're still working on your book, but this lady is amazing!!!
Kristina has been working out very consistent almost every day with Summer and
me at Mission Bay and lost an amazing amount of weight since she joined Stroller
Strides. Her husband is deployed and won't recognize her when he comes back.
Not just the amazing weight loss also the energie gained...anyway...I don't know
if you are still looking for "great stories"...Kristina is one of my HEROS!!!
Sibylle

Even More Saturday..

So this weekend has been incredibly rough. I don't even know what to say about it really...it goes on forever and so much happened and yet so much didn't. I have been and still am an emotional wreck. I have been feeling very alone and stressed. It doesn't even matter now because tomorrow is another day and it is Easter and I will be celebrating with my babies and I know Dillon is gonna love cracking those eggs lol. I am probably gonna end up dying like 25 for only 1 kid who can really hunt lol. I have been thinking about my blog...it was originally supposed to be about my time in So Cal and all the amazing things I have seen. I was gonna post pics of everything...but it is hard carrying around 2 kids and camera and I have found I would much rather talk about my husband lol. I mean really almost every post has been about him lol. I wonder if he knows that...I wonder if he really knows how much I love him...anyway sidetracked once again...So maybe I should change the name of the blog to crazy obsessed love stricken married woman???? LOL You know you are truly over the top still in love with your husband when ppl start making fun of you for being the GOOD wife...LOL

Saturday

As we speak....Steve is in Thailand and Breanna is in bed sleeping off her sickness. I had to cancel her party again. It is sad. I also have not been able to workout because of it and I feel crummy. I have not been having a good couple of days and I am not feeling like these feelings inside will go away anytime soon. I am ready for some ME time I am in need of some ME time...where the only thing I have to worry about is myself and by god I will get it lol.

Steve wanted some new pics.

For comparison I added one form the day he left.

What I can't see is how I'm ever gonna love him more..but then I've said that before!

Then lyrics

I remember, trying not to stare the night that I first met you. You had me mesmerized.
And three weeks later in the front porch light, taking forty five minutes to kiss goodnight.
I hadn't told you yet, but I thought I loved you then.

Now you're my whole life, now you're my whole world. And I just can't believe, the way I feel about you girl.
Like a river meets the sea, stronger than it's ever been. We've come so far since that day.
And I thought I loved you then.

I remember, taking you back to right where I first met you. You were so surprised.
There people around but I didn't care. I got down on one knee right there.
And once again, I thought I loved you then.

Now you're my whole life, now you're my whole world. And I just can't believe, the way I feel about you girl.
Like a river meets the sea, stronger than it's ever been. We've come so far since that day.
And I thought I loved you then.

I can just see you, with a baby on the way. I can just see you, when your hair is turning grey.
What I can't see is how I'm ever going to love you more. But I've said that before.

Now you're my whole life, now you're my whole world. And I just can't believe the way I feel about you girl.
We'll look back someday, at this moment that we're in and I'll look at you and say, "And I thought I loved you then."
And I thought I loved you then.

Just rambling cause I have no one else to talk to...

This morning when I woke up I called Tiffany like I always do. Email is still down on the ship and I told her this and she goes on to tell me some stuff about North Korea. Now if you know me you know I do not watch the news. Not even the 5 O'clock news. If I find something out it means it is bad enough that it got relayed to me some how. I am just the type of person where the news really effects me. It is so depressing and yes I would rather stay ignorant in my little bubble and assume the world is ok. Judge if you want but it is how I want to live. Anyways... I could not help but go to foxnews.com and look for myself and it was bad. I have known about North Korea but there were several key words I found incredible alarming. Such as missile and space and threatens U.S. warships...shoot down the rocket...struck with..."thunderbolt of fire"!!!!!!
Those words right there...3 little words have... I have to admit it have had me in tears all day. Now I do not know where Steve is and I do not knwo what is going on and I honestly expect and email any minute saying your an idiot you should not have been upset. The only thing is I have been waiting for that email since yesterday and well I don't wanna say anymore but Steve keeps me up to date if he knows about email being down he tells me and he didn't and that has me concerned.
So in light of all of these things I have been playing the WHAT IF GAME all day. What if something happend? What if he never came home? What if I could never smell him again? What if i never felt his arms around me again, felt his eyes upon me, saw him play with our children, walk Breanna down the isle, teach Dillon to play T ball? and on and on and on all freaking day. Today was a busy day to I was gone almost all day doing errands and so it is not like all i did was sit around and dwell on this. I tried to get my mind off of it but it never happend nothign worked. I kept asking what i would do if this horrible thing happend. Where I would go, how I would react. Part of me said I would get in the car and just drive...The other part said I would lay in bed and weap until my heart gave in and withered away.
I imagined the conversation I would have with my mother. The whole time thinking she was thinking good cause now I would have money and have to come back to Jacksonville.
I cried in the car with the music up so the kids would not notice and be effected. As that is one of me and Steve's rules. We try not to show the kids us being upset about the deployment so they don't get upset for no reason.
I don't know it is sad. It is scary! I don't know how other branches wives do it. Just the thought of him being in danger had me this upset. I could not imagine if he was actually in danger everyday. I could not do that.
The whole point is...I love my husband...but that is not even close to how I really feel about him. You have always heard ppl say where is your better half...well Steve is my better half and without him I really don't think I could survive. He has changed my life more then I ever thought any man could...He is the only man who has been strong enough to hang around. Seeing as how I have and my family has repelled men since my birth! We have been together 6 years and I know I could not live without him. I am not one of those mushy teenagers where they later find out they didn't mean any of this. I have seen my life without Steve and I can not go back to that but without him constantly in my head and heart I know I eventually would. That very thought scares me. Steve and I have had our fare share of issues and things have not always been great and there were times when I thought I may not be in love with him but we stuck it out and now we are stronger and more in love and infatuated with each other then we have ever been before.
I don't know...I just can't stand not knowing I cannot stand hearing I have mail and it not being from him. i cannot stand him not knowing what I am doing today.
On another note...I blame Tiffany for this lol...I don't want to talk to my other friends about this cause their husbands are with my husband and I am not going ot push my craziness on them or give them any bad thoughts and will actually probably send them a message not to read this entry lol. UGGH IS IT OVER YET?!?!?!?!?!?!?!? I cannot take it...this BITES!

Feels like...

I am banging my head against a brick wall every second of every day screaming C'MON EMAIL! OMG I can not imagine dealing with this for long periods or if god forbid I was unable to talk to him forever...uggh You would think I would not be so dependent...I am pathetic.

Terrible Tuesday

Dillon has been sick since Saturday evening. I really had no intention of taking him to the doctor. He is old enough to tough a cold out but it kept getting worse. His eye are leaking green gooup and so is his nose and he still has a fever. Dillon really has not been very sick since his like 1st birthday and even now if you ask him if he is sick he says no. So I had to take him to the doctor today. Turns out he has a double ear infection and bacteria infecting his eyes. She prescribed him antibiotics. She said he would not be able to attend his first swim lesson tonight and ofcorse I am bummed. I sold some things off craiglist and so had to meet the ppl and had to rush from the doctor to meet the girl and she wanted to meet at mcdonalds. So i ate mcdonalds cause there is no taking dillon to a mcdonalds and not letting him eat and play anyway I don't get to workout today or tomorrow cause of Dillons illness and ate mcdonalds and uggh. I have also had problems with my renters and it has seemed to work its self out but not without causing fear and stress. I am trying to get things planned and done for Breannas party and a friend had to cancel cause of Dillon illness which i totally understand but it still sucks lol. Email is down on the ship. and OH MY GOD I JUST WANT TO SCREAM lol. when it all comes down it all comes down lol.
On the upside...the renters are paying their rent! I loved the new doctor i am taking the kids to now. I made some extra money. I let Dillon pick out a present for Breanna and he got her something cute but also picked out her wrapping paper and insisted on the big pink bow and helped me wrap it and was super cute about it. Breanna is not sick the doctor said her ears were fine. So things aren't that bad but it has been stressful up to this point and I always end up in a funk when email is down. Makes me see just how much I depend on Steve.

Monday = 3 hours of working out!?!?!?!?!?!?!?

So on Mondays Dillon has school and Breanna and I go to SS. Dillon gets out of school at 11:30 and I am going to attempt to get us all to the Y and checked in oh and they have to had lunch by 12. lol Some days I make it some days I fail miserably. I found if i let them eat a sandwich in the car our odds are a bit better.
I have sat at home all weekend and got alot of stuff done but I hate sitting here and I have not had any vampire books to read so life has just been sucky.
I am trying to prepare for Breanna's birthday it is not to far away her party is Saturday and her brithday is Wendsday. I am going out of the way to make it great because there is so much she doesn't get that Dillon did. However I may be biting off more then I can chew. The thing is you never know how many people will show up and so usually you end up with no one or to many lol. we will see I just want ti to be special for her since her daddy can't be here.

My Y workouts since Wends!!!!

Journal entry dated March 3, 2002

I want to go back where I belong. The sun is so bright and oh so warm the water is blue and it's cold and there's sharks, but lots of surfers their so totally radical. The sand feels great between your toes. Flowers are always in bloom and there's a sweet fragrance lingering in the air...it's jasmine, it's in bloom and floats over the town putting it in a soft sweet bubble. The people there are totally weird, there are lots of bugs (freaks or runaways or homeless) but they are totally funny to watch. It's peaceful in certain spots and ridiculous in others but in the quiet you can still hear the hustle and bustle of the thriving city below. everything is on a hill and you can see stars even in the daylight...they are always shining. See I belong there, it's my home, my special place.
Can you guess where I was talking about all those years ago????

I have alot to BLOG about today so read on...

The first thing I wanna talk about is how tired I am of being the MAN around the house...Yesterday I cut the back yard. No big deal I actually enjoy doing it. I am in the beautiful So Cal sun and getting a little extra workout. So I enjoy it until I run over the freaking sprinkler head and yank it completely out of the ground with parts flying every where and the spring still attached to the blade. So then today I go to move my husbands car from the street where it had been parked on Friday. The freaking battery is dead again. This is like the 4th time since he has deployed and he said I would only have to start it and let it run for a while and I do more then that. I drive usually once a week I even bought Breanna another carseat to go in it cause I love the mazda and it is HOT compared to my mini van lol. Well so I have to jump it and then I am like i need to nip this in the bud so I make sure the connections to the battery are on tight. I even used tools. Then I remembered someone told me his amp could be running down the battery so I call my wonderful all knowing about cars EX brother in law MIKE and he walks me though disconnecting the amp. I had to pull the fuse out of the thingy and I had to unscrew these thingys and then I had to screw them back and in the mean time one of the thingys slides down and I have to put MY hand in side this tight little dirty spot and try and reach it and UGGH I AM DONE BEING THE MAN...BOTH THE CARS NEED OIL CHANGES AND GOD HELP THE MECHANIC WHO TRYS TO SCREW ME ON THAT...CAUSE HE WILL FEEL MY WRATH!
Ok on to the next topic. I am working my butt off exercising 2-3 hours daily except for Sunday. I love it...what else do I have to do. I am only 13 pounds from my goal weight and I am not even half way though this deployment. Not only that I am getting toned. I have muscle where I have never had muscle. I am not nor have I ever been a physical girl. I don't and didn't play sports. I was inside watching and talking to all the hot boys who did those kinds of things. So I am quite proud of myself. I am loving my new body and the adrenaline rush from working out...cause I sure ain't getting it anywhere else lol. So today at the Y which I have been going to religiously since oh um last week sometime. My Ipod dies my Ipod that my wonderful all knowing husband got me for Christmas and I say this cause it is my second one. The first one is one of the first generations and like a brick and not durable at all. So this one he got me is HOT PINK and is awesome it is only loaded with Itunes music and well it ROCKS. IO don't know where I would be in my weight loss with out it. So it is dead and I am like uggh. So I am in the middle of doing my hip abductions and I am like ya know I wonder if these machines will work with my Ipod and charge it...cause nothing else does besides plugging it into the computer. None of the car things I have will charge it or my radios so I am really doubtful these machines will. My Ipod is just to new. SO I hop back onto the elliptical and plug it in. Ok so not only does the machine charge it but it saves my freaking workout to my Ipod so I can monitor what I am doing and come home and get on Nikeplus.com and track it all. OMG ARE YOU FREAKING SERIOUS. How cool is that. I mean really that is so neat. I have not been on nikeplus yet but I just was so happy it charged it and then I was able to control it from the machines touchscreen and then it saved my workout just unreal.
The other really good news it Jesse McCartney's How Do You Sleep is finally being released on April 7th so I can finally DL that after trying to forever. Plus Steve is pulling in to port soon and I am banking on seeing him on cam and man life just is great.
My friend Ricky told me today how my husband is a lucky man for having me and I wrote him back and just have to say it here to...That I am the lucky one. Steve sleeps in a hole with gas pipes all around him and apparently it has been so hot down there he isn't even able to sleep anymore just to give me and the kids this wonderful amazing lifestyle we have. It helps to that he enjoys it and likes to go to the different places and stuff but still. He is awesome and I AM THE LUCKY ONE!

Trying to stay positive!

I feel like I am at a stand still with my weight loss even though I still work really hard. I have been super hungry for the past 2 weeks and It has made things hard. I have added more to my work out schedule though by joining the Y and now I am trying to go there everyday. I feel like I can't take Dillon to stroller strides anymore so the Y was my alternative but I am still doing Stroller Strides 3 times a week with just Breanna.
I am busy planning Breanna's 1st birthday party and that is a chore. She is so grown up it nearly breaks my heart. Especially knowing she is my last little baby.
Steve is in Guam soon and this morning he called me...he is going to visit some friends of ours who are stationed there and is staying with them to. So this morning he calls me. I was still asleep but got up and answered it I asked what he was doing he said he just couldn't sleep and was missing me....awww! Then he said plus i wanted to make sure you didn't do anything stupid. I was like what are you talking about. He didn't want to tell me but i finally got it out of him. He was worried I was gonna try and go see him. Worried i book a flight and fly over there. Truthfully the thought had never even occurred to me and I want to kick myself for that. I would have loved to have done that but we don't have the money anyway but I feel like i should have at least thought of it. He said he had checked on flights already and they were like 2000 dollars. so it would have been impossible but It made me happy to know he looked cause I think had it not been so expensive I think he would of told me to come and that makes me happy. Corse everything he does makes me happy. It makes me happy he just called me. He sent me the sweetest email the other day. Saying how besides our wedding day and the day the kids were born homecoming would be the happiest day of his life so far. It made my heart soar! He can be so sweet and romantic when he wants to be.

Oh just gettin on

Well so life has just been chuggin right along. Time is going by fast usually and most of time like today I realize it is Wednesday and it is all ready a week since last Wednesday. That doesn't even make sense but it is just how my life has been going. we are in a very good routine and doing so has time going by. Which is good cause everyday gone is a day closer to him.
I am still losing weight and even though I am not at my goal I feel like i am cause my main goal was to fit in the stack of old jeans I have and guess what I do. However I am continuing to lose and continuing to go to Stroller Strides. I am also working on getting tanned. LOL i know who would have ever thought I would be trying to get tan...but I am and I love it. I love sitting out with my Ipod feeling the hot sun on my skin. Thinking about Steve. I am always thinking about Steve. It is actually kinda sad how much I think about Steve and I am pretty sure I am obsessed. Every minute of everyday he is on my mind. it is unhealthy I am sure.
I wish going to the beach wasn't so hard and such a chore or I would be there right now. I haven't eaten at all today...that isn't good but I forgot until just now lmao.

VIDEO TELECONFRENCE TODAY

I get to see my wonderful amazing husband today...for real this time lol. I took pics cause I always take pics the day of but also because I put on a pair of pants I have not worn since I was 19 years old and they fit. I am so happy I coudl cry...I look so good and it is all for him :)

Today

I am going to stroller strides then hittin up subway since Dillon loves a meatball sandwich lol and then taking the kids to sea world. On Steve's suggestion cause yesterday I was a bit bummed over the whole deployment so he said I needed to go to sea world today to get out of the funk so I am. I also am hoping I get the package from him I am waiting on...I have never checked the mail so much lol. I am also hoping he will find internet connection today and be able to web cam with us. Thank god for technology I don't know how I would make it though if i wasn't able to see his smile as much as i have been this deployment. My husband is my whole life and inspite of everything that must still go on when he is away..Breanna's birthday...anniversarys...my birthday and his...Dillon's birthday and on and on. It always feels as though my life is on hold until he is back by myside. I am constantly holding my breath waiting on him to get home in order to breath freely again.

How do I do it....

Recently the question was asked of me...The only thing I said was because I have to! This question en particularx was how do I go shopping with 2 kids by myself. Answer because I have to. I have no family to watch them and I can't afford to pay a baby sitter just so I can go shopping lol. Then today I was asked mind you it is only 8:23 am here and I have all ready been asked how I do it. I am taking my kids to Stroller Strides then to the Zoo. My friend asked how I do it...saying she would need a week of recovery after watching 4 kids by herself for 4 days...but not me oh no The first day I don't have 4 kids I am out shopping and the next day the Zoo. lol It has never occurred to me to slow down or stay at home. I don't like sitting at home when I could be out walking around being active and in the sunny So Cal sun. My mother in law has asked me several times how I do it saying I always seem to be going some where or doing something and she is right. I AM! My husband and I when we moved here or really when we decided to have kids decided they would have a very active life and see things we never saw and do things we never got to do. We have lived up to this I think without even realizing it. My kids have seen The white house in Washington, waterfalls in the hills of Tennessee and the grand canyon and the hang gliders up off the cliffs of La Jolla and driven up the coast to the Santa Monica Pier! We are constantly going, constantly exploring and constantly showing them the other things life has to offer. I feel very proud when people ask me how I do it because it means I am exceeding in mine and my wonderful husbands goal!